Rubik's Cube Mosaic

This is pretty dope. Too much work and problem solving for

my taste tho..lol. I can't solve ONE rubik's cube, let alone

336 of them and make a mosaic portrait out of it. 

F**k that! -__- lol..ne way, here's a clip..ENJOY.

Tomorrow Is Never Promised

Rest in Paradise Bob. It was a pleasure working with you. 

Thank you for letting me be part of your life, 

as well as touching the lives of the people 

around you --  especially our patients. 

You will truly be missed.

Bobby Lee Belford.

Nov. 6, 1967 - Oct. 29, 2011.

QOTD:

"The one you love and the ones who love you are never, ever the same person."
-Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters

Lately

     It's been a while since I last blogged. Let's see.... this month's been a little overwhelming for me. From the death of my grandmother, to my little nephew and his grandma getting in a car accident, to my step-mom losing her job, stressing over a dilemma at my job from August, and to finding out tonight of another person's death that I shared a part of my life with. Amongst the little things that goes on on a day-to-day basis, I still have my own personal shit I have to deal with. This has definitely called for a lot of soul-searching...and patience....and "holding my composure and keeping it together and NOT have a mental breakdown!" type of discipline lol. Doesn't help the fact too, that the only person that I'm sure will and can make it all better for me is hundreds of miles away. And to be quite honest...this whole 'long distance relationship' is starting to take its toll on me. It gets lonely. The last time I was with RC was on the 2nd of October. She'll be here again on the 11th of November, so everything about this relationship revolves around time. It's moving too slow or too fast. There's not enough time, or we spend too much time..alone and away from each other. We count by days and weeks. Watch the minutes and hours pass. Every second, every sunrise, and every sunset. It's very hard. But for those of you that knows me well, and have been there throughout my relationships know that I don't give up easy. I will try and try and make it work. I will stand up and fight for my relationship until that switch in my head turns off and tells me to 'move the fuck on'. I don't see that happening anytime soon. :) We both want this and we also knew that this was NOT going to be easy. We both have the same goals for our future and I know that once we get there, this will all be worth the struggle.

     So speaking of OUR future, this weekend we celebrated Halloween weekend by staying home on the phone, searching on the internet for an apartment in New York. Brooklyn area to be exact. Fun huh?!?! lol. (It was for us and that's all that matters). We also have been getting some help with job referrals and suggestions from our friends in NY, so slowly but surely we are getting the ball rolling. Our goal is to be there by the end of February/ beginning of March. But if everything falls in place, we actually may be looking at something waaaay before that date. :) We are mos def praying for the best, so until then.....we just have to keep our focus and most importantly, our faith. I mean, I can't express enough how very excited & anxious I am about all of this. The last time I attempted to move to New York was in August of last year. But then, things happened and it brought me to where I am now. I'm not complaining tho. I'm mos def a lot stronger and wiser now and this time around, I have nothing holding me back.

     What else......I think that's pretty much it. I haven't really been out. Actually, not at all since I was last out with RC. With everything that's happened, and is still going on....I've pretty much just kept to myself and stayed around family. I have so much going on in my head that I wouldn't really make a good companion to be around right now. I'm always on my phone and I just look distracted -- like, I'm there, but I'm not really there...lol. So yeah...not a good look!! O_o But, I'm fortunate enough to have the people that is still around me to keep me leveled. And most importantly, I have my #1 support..... my girlfriend. Man, I'm sure I have put this girl through hell and back with my constant mood swings, and my early morning bursts of crankiness (my poor baby...haha sorry babe...). But I can easily say that she's handling all of this pretty well. Don't get me wrong, she's had her moments too (but that's for a whole 'nother post, lol)...but she gets the REAL concept of being in a relationship and what a relationship is all about. Talking and working things out without carrying it on unresolved, giving each other space when needed, all the morals, values, and understanding. She just gets IT! We have officially been together for 2mos now, and everything is PERFECT! I know you all are thinking that it's still new and we still have much to figure out about each other, and we're not around each other enough...blah blah deefucking blaaaaah kjdfjsdhuihrkh...but guess what?!? WE KNOW!! lol. But we also know that these feelings are just something we just can't and won't ignore, and we are embracing every moment of it as much as we can. Whether it's everlasting or not, we have it and it's a beautiful thing. It's a beautiful feeling to wake up to every morning, to be high off of all day long, and to have it keep you awake at night. Our relationship isn't based on lust, alcohol, money, drugs, infatuation, or physical attention. It is strictly based on our emotional connection.... and that my friend, is the hardest thing to come by. It's something you can't change about a person nor something you can just settle with when it's not fully there. At this moment, we're happy and we share a healthy relationship and that's what's important.

     I must say that I'm just thankful for everything that I do have & every experience that's coming my way. I know that I'm walking a path to bigger and better things. God is good, and I've been blessed with the courage and wisdom to overcome these obstacles that's being thrown my way. :)


"Life is a dream...REALIZE IT."

QOTD:

LIVE with no excuses, and LOVE with no regrets.

Dear Long Distance

ANGEL HAZE - DEAR LONG  DISTANCE

"You are words from a pen leaking onto the sheets of my bed,

the margin, indention, and knowledge they spread.

You are love; you are the love I've never been able to personify, 

but only touch, feel, and see from a distance.

You are time; the seconds, the minutes, the hours within me....

every instance." -Angel Haze.

Almost There...

Getting closer and closer to my dreams.....

Halfway packed and ready to runaway with YOU.

QOTD:

Life is like a piano. The white keys represent happiness, and the black keys represent sadness. But as you go through life's journey, remember that the black keys make music too.

KUSH & OJ [[UP]]

That feeling. Exactly the way she makes me feel. 

HIGH. No words can describe.   

Love always gets a HOLD of me.

& I control every part of it.

And she controls every part of ME.
-RA



-Random thoughts.

MIND F**K.

Oh, Abel....Abel..Abel. Abel Tesfaye, that's

The Weeknd for those who don't know, and are
just now catching on to this amazing world of
mind f**king.Why are you so amaziiing?!?!? LOL

THE WEEKND - SORRY (Prod. by ONRA)

THE WEEKND - INITIATION

FLORENCE & THE MACHINE - SHAKE IT OUT

(THE WEEKND REMIX)

AND ONCE AGAIN, YOU'RE WELCOME!!

-XO 'TILL WE OVERDOSE.

Song of the Day

KINGS OF LEON - USE SOMEBODY

You know that I could use somebody..

Someone like you, and all you know, and how you speak.

I hope it's gonna make you notice..

Someone like me.

QOTD:

Don't make your presence noticed, just make your absence felt.

BREAK UPS SUCK!!!!!!

ESPECIALLY, THIS ONE!!! LOL

QOTD:

At one point in your life you either have the things you WANT, or the reasons why you DON'T.

Thank Me Later

ANGEL HAZE. YOUTUBE HER!!! IF YOU DON'T KNOW..

WELL, NOW YOU KNOW!!!

ANGEL HAZE - UNTHINKABLE

ANGEL HAZE - NO GREATER LOVE

ANGEL HAZE - SAY SOMETHING

AHHHHHH!!! SOME *G* SHYYYT!! LOVE IT!!

YOU'RE FUCKING WELCOME!!!!!!

Song of the Day

NO DOUBT - RUNNING

Be, be the one I need,

Be the one I trust most.

Don't stop inspiring me.

Running, running, as fast as we can.

Do you think we'll make it??

We're running, running, keep holding my hand...

It's so we don't get separated.

Make A Fucking Wish!

This is a poem I just made up just now cuz I'm fucking bored.

Hope you guys enjoy it. If not, then leave my blog. kkkbyye!

Once upon a time,

I wished upon a time.

I waited & waited a long ass time,

But seriously...I think I'm running out of time.

So, I went downstairs to make a peanut butter &

jelly sandwich cuz I was hungry as fuck, cuz I

didn't have anything to eat during lunchtime.

Ummm...this poem is taking a long time...

I'm acting like this shit is a pastime.

It's fucking late and it's almost past my bedtime.

Wish I had someone to cuddle with and have sexytime...lol

Anyway,  this poem made no sense like halftime.

My dumbass could sit here too, makin' up shit 'till wintertime.

Time rhymes with yo momma...sometimes..

Ne way..let me finish this for now, so in the meantime,

I'll come back around again like ragtime.

The end. -RA

QOTD:

"In the hopes of reaching the moon, men fail to see the flowers that blossom at their feet." -Albert Schweitzer.

My Grandmother's Wake

In any man who dies, there dies with him

his first kiss, his first snow, his first love...

Not people die, but worlds die in them.

We will miss you...

QOTD:

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me." - Erma Bombeck.

Rest in Paradise

My dear grandmother finally got her angel wings. Rest in Paradise "Nanay". 

I'm sure grandpa is very excited to have you back in his life.

We are all going to miss you. We will see you again!!

Always loving you....... <3

Jan. 29, 1919 - Oct. 17, 2011

God saw you getting tired, and a cure was not to be.

So he put his arms around you and whispered, "Come with me.."

With tearful eyes we watched you, and saw you pass away.

Although we loved you dearly, we could not make you stay.

A golden heart stopped beating. Hard working hands at rest.

God broke our hearts to prove to us, he only takes the best.

Some Hood Shit

Poor poor doggie. :(

QOTD:

"Throw your heart over the fence and the rest will follow." - Norman Vincent Peale.

Jakey

He loves me...I swear. LOL

Song of the Day

"Yea, I told you that it's our world, and you're foolish thinking I'm wrong.

Stop asking how the fucking needle feel, tatt my fucking name on you,

let these nigguhs know it's real..wassup!"

QOTD:

Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. I'ts for those who's willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they long for. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it,  even if they don't see it nearly enough.

Keeping You In Our Prayers

LOL - ewww, my face!!

     There are no words that describes the love I have for my grandmother. She helped raised us and help support us through our childhood back home. She made sure we went to a good school, helped my parents put good food on the table, our holidays were memorable, and taught us how to love and care and appreciate every little thing that comes our way.

     

My "Nanay"

     She is currently on life support and the doctors said that she only has a little over 1% chance of making it. They're not even sure if she'll make it past the end of this week. So, please keep her in your prayers.

A Million and One Reasons to Smile

Sender: "Morning <3
             I wanna go to the Bunny Ranch in Pahrump.. k bye!"

Gotta love waking up to those txts!!! LOL

A Few Words of Advice

Sender: "Note to self: Keep in mind when you delete the # of the old flame you kissed (which had no spark) a few weeks ago, that she might contact you. You won't recognize the # and now she's pissed at ya! :p"


Ahh..my friends give such great advice, don't they?!?! LOL

Long Distance Relationship...

     ...SUCKS!!!! My girlfriend and I have definitely made the best out of our long distance relationship. And when I say the BEST of it... meaning everything from watching a movie together (while on the phone), talking and texting all day long, exchanging pictures, and even sleeping on the phone. Grr! It's going on 2 weeks since I last saw her. I won't see her again 'till the end of this month for Halloween and then not 'till Thanksgiving after that. Blah!
     And I'm sure ya'll are wondering how everything went during her visit down here for the very first time. Well....it was UGHMAZIING!! It definitely made it harder to be back on the phone texting/talking again once she left, but that's a long distance relationship for you I guess. She got to meet a few of my closest friends with the exception of the few that couldn't make it out. Ummm, we drank...A LOT!! lol.. Had a lot of things we planned that didn't get to do, errrr forgot to do or forgot we did?!?! 0_o But overall, it was an awesome NEW & OUT OF THE ORDINARY experience.
     What I have with RC is something different. She makes me feel brand new. The feeling she brings out of me is indescribable. I don't ever feel pressured with her or as if I'm walking on eggshells. And as far in distance and complicated as this relationship has been... I just want more and more of it. This is gonna sound super gay, but I feel like I'm stuck in a maze with her. Not really knowing which way to go or not seeing what lies ahead or what's coming next. All that really matters is we're in this maze TOGETHER. And the most a[maze]ing part about all of it, is we want to stay lost in it for as long as we possibly can. Aww.. that's gay huh?!? Hahaha #truestory tho.



-Life is nothing without love, love is nothing without hope, hope is knowing you'll be there everyday.

WTF?!?!

WHAT. THE. FUCK. IS. THAT. SHIIIIIT?!?! SMH!!

Currently Listening To...

RICK ROSS ft.NICKI MINAJ - YOU THE BOSS

"I'll do anything that you say, anything.....

'cuz you're THE BO$$."

My Beautiful Princess

Finally got to see this beautiful niece of mine last Friday after a few months!!

It still shocks me to see how much she's grown. **tear**

You will always be Auntie Rica's #1. I love you Kaycee <3.

QOTD:

You cannot be good enough for everybody, but you will always be the best for the one who deserves you.