HEART-BREAKING

Etta James is terminally ill with chronic leukemia and was declared

incurable 2 weeks ago. Doctors and Family are asking for prayers.

ETTA JAMES -  I'S RATHER GO BLIND

(one of my all-time classic faves)

My Troublemakers

Sailor gives the best kisses.

..& Jakey loves to cuddle.

Hits Close To HOME

DRAKE ft. STEVIE WONDER - DO IT WRONG

"When a good thing goes bad, it's not the end of the world.

It's just the end of a world, that you had with one girl.

And she's the reason it happened, but she's overreacting.

And it's all because she don't want things to change.

So cry if you need to, but I can't stay to watch you...

that's the wrong thing to do.

Touch if you need to, but I can't stay to hold you...

that's the wrong thing to do.

Talk if you need to, but I can't stay to hear you...

that's the wrong thing to do.

'Cause you say you love me, but I'll end up lying...

And say I love you too.

But I need someone different..

You know it. WE BOTH KNOW IT."

Turning Page

   There are no words to describe the feeling this woman gives me.

The love and respect she has for me, the patience to understand me,

the loyalty, the devotion, and the commitment she's shown for OUR

relationship is unbelievable. I swear I've been given more than I could

ever ask for. I'm very BLESSED to have someone like YOU to take care

of me and call my OWN. You have definitely become my turning page --

A whole new chapter in my life.

Thank you..... <3

"When my head is strong, but my heart is weak

I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty

When I can't find the words, you teach my heart to speak

You make it real for me."

--No need to wonder what's been on my mind,

it's YOU..

Relationship Advice

     Take it from me, YES??....lol. What do I know, right? -__- But this new topic post I'm starting will not, and I repeat will NOT be agreeable to some, but honestly I could care less. These advice will mainly come from personal experience more than anything -- what has worked & not worked for me. It'll be fun I promise ;).

Relationship Advice: Key to a long relationship; keep the fights CLEAN, and the sex DIRTY!

Song of the Day

"I am ready for LOVE...all of the JOY & the PAIN.

I am ready for LOVE, here with an offering of:

my voice,

my eyes,

my soul,

my mind."

#NP

KIRKO BANGZ - DRANK IN MY CUP

"Girl I know how much you really want somebody,

Want somebody that don't really need you.

Girl I know how much you really want somebody,

Want somebody that ain't tryna keep you."

QOTD:

No female wants to be called a BITCH, but once you put "bad" in front of it, these hoes feel honored.

#NP

Robert Pattinson - Never Think

"You'll learn to hate me, but still call me baby.

Oh love...so call me by my name.

WITHOUT ME, YOU GOT IT ALL...
SO HOLD ON."

QOTD:

FIGHT for your DREAMS, and GIVE UP on your DOUBTS.

PMS

     So, in ALL of my previous relationships, I've always been the one to PMS worst than my partner. I mean, there had been times where my girlfriend was the one having it worst than me (but that's once in a blue moon). I'm always the most hormonal one in the relationship -__-. The worst of it all is when you have the same cycle and you both PMS and go at it like 2 pitbulls!! But man, oh man!! My girlfriend on her cycle this month?? Let me tell you!! First, she was like this:

And then...............

     YAH! That shit was insane!! SMH. 

But today is a good day, cuz I think it's finally all over!!

I think....

Hello December!

Last chance to end this year on a better note!!

December, please be good to me. :)

QOTD:

LOVE is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and  all fear of an end.

A Million Years.....

     ...just like vampires, I want to live && love for hundreds and hundreds of years. In love....for eternity.

Sleeping at Last - Turning Page

"I've waited a hundred years,

 But I'd wait a million more for YOU.

Nothing prepared me for what the privilege of being yours

would do..."

 "Your love is my turning page, where only the sweetest

words remain. Every kiss is a cursive line,

Every touch is a redefining phrase."

"I surrender who I've been for who you are,

For nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart."

QOTD:

Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction.

#NP

FRANK OCEAN - THINKING ABOUT YOU

"My eyes don't shed tears, but boy, they bawl when I'm thinking 'bout you.
I've been thinkin' 'bout you, do you think about me still??
Do ya? Do ya??

Or do you not think so far ahead...

'cuz I've been thinking 'bout foR.eveR"

QOTD:

Life's too short to argue and fight. Count your blessings, value your friends and move on with your head held high and a smile for everyone.

In my opinion..

I think, Rihanna and Chris Brown 

still made one of the hottest couples around, 

next to Kim Kardashian and Reggie Bush. lol

Kinda Late....

Yea...but I think it's time for me to create a TUMBLR account.

- Just a random thought. k byyye.

QOTD:

A man's heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps. -Proverbs 16:9

Congratulations Rocki!!!!

One of my bestest friends in the whole entire world,

and one of the most big-hearted & caring person I know.

You have come along way Mahal!! You deserve to have nothing

 but happiness in your life. We are all very proud of you! I love you!!

QOTD:

"It's not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change." -Charles Darwin

QOTD:

For beautiful eyes; look for the good in others. For beautiful lips; speak only words of kindness. And for poise; walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.

Rubik's Cube Mosaic

This is pretty dope. Too much work and problem solving for

my taste tho..lol. I can't solve ONE rubik's cube, let alone

336 of them and make a mosaic portrait out of it. 

F**k that! -__- lol..ne way, here's a clip..ENJOY.

Tomorrow Is Never Promised

Rest in Paradise Bob. It was a pleasure working with you. 

Thank you for letting me be part of your life, 

as well as touching the lives of the people 

around you --  especially our patients. 

You will truly be missed.

Bobby Lee Belford.

Nov. 6, 1967 - Oct. 29, 2011.

QOTD:

"The one you love and the ones who love you are never, ever the same person."
-Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters

Lately

     It's been a while since I last blogged. Let's see.... this month's been a little overwhelming for me. From the death of my grandmother, to my little nephew and his grandma getting in a car accident, to my step-mom losing her job, stressing over a dilemma at my job from August, and to finding out tonight of another person's death that I shared a part of my life with. Amongst the little things that goes on on a day-to-day basis, I still have my own personal shit I have to deal with. This has definitely called for a lot of soul-searching...and patience....and "holding my composure and keeping it together and NOT have a mental breakdown!" type of discipline lol. Doesn't help the fact too, that the only person that I'm sure will and can make it all better for me is hundreds of miles away. And to be quite honest...this whole 'long distance relationship' is starting to take its toll on me. It gets lonely. The last time I was with RC was on the 2nd of October. She'll be here again on the 11th of November, so everything about this relationship revolves around time. It's moving too slow or too fast. There's not enough time, or we spend too much time..alone and away from each other. We count by days and weeks. Watch the minutes and hours pass. Every second, every sunrise, and every sunset. It's very hard. But for those of you that knows me well, and have been there throughout my relationships know that I don't give up easy. I will try and try and make it work. I will stand up and fight for my relationship until that switch in my head turns off and tells me to 'move the fuck on'. I don't see that happening anytime soon. :) We both want this and we also knew that this was NOT going to be easy. We both have the same goals for our future and I know that once we get there, this will all be worth the struggle.

     So speaking of OUR future, this weekend we celebrated Halloween weekend by staying home on the phone, searching on the internet for an apartment in New York. Brooklyn area to be exact. Fun huh?!?! lol. (It was for us and that's all that matters). We also have been getting some help with job referrals and suggestions from our friends in NY, so slowly but surely we are getting the ball rolling. Our goal is to be there by the end of February/ beginning of March. But if everything falls in place, we actually may be looking at something waaaay before that date. :) We are mos def praying for the best, so until then.....we just have to keep our focus and most importantly, our faith. I mean, I can't express enough how very excited & anxious I am about all of this. The last time I attempted to move to New York was in August of last year. But then, things happened and it brought me to where I am now. I'm not complaining tho. I'm mos def a lot stronger and wiser now and this time around, I have nothing holding me back.

     What else......I think that's pretty much it. I haven't really been out. Actually, not at all since I was last out with RC. With everything that's happened, and is still going on....I've pretty much just kept to myself and stayed around family. I have so much going on in my head that I wouldn't really make a good companion to be around right now. I'm always on my phone and I just look distracted -- like, I'm there, but I'm not really there...lol. So yeah...not a good look!! O_o But, I'm fortunate enough to have the people that is still around me to keep me leveled. And most importantly, I have my #1 support..... my girlfriend. Man, I'm sure I have put this girl through hell and back with my constant mood swings, and my early morning bursts of crankiness (my poor baby...haha sorry babe...). But I can easily say that she's handling all of this pretty well. Don't get me wrong, she's had her moments too (but that's for a whole 'nother post, lol)...but she gets the REAL concept of being in a relationship and what a relationship is all about. Talking and working things out without carrying it on unresolved, giving each other space when needed, all the morals, values, and understanding. She just gets IT! We have officially been together for 2mos now, and everything is PERFECT! I know you all are thinking that it's still new and we still have much to figure out about each other, and we're not around each other enough...blah blah deefucking blaaaaah kjdfjsdhuihrkh...but guess what?!? WE KNOW!! lol. But we also know that these feelings are just something we just can't and won't ignore, and we are embracing every moment of it as much as we can. Whether it's everlasting or not, we have it and it's a beautiful thing. It's a beautiful feeling to wake up to every morning, to be high off of all day long, and to have it keep you awake at night. Our relationship isn't based on lust, alcohol, money, drugs, infatuation, or physical attention. It is strictly based on our emotional connection.... and that my friend, is the hardest thing to come by. It's something you can't change about a person nor something you can just settle with when it's not fully there. At this moment, we're happy and we share a healthy relationship and that's what's important.

     I must say that I'm just thankful for everything that I do have & every experience that's coming my way. I know that I'm walking a path to bigger and better things. God is good, and I've been blessed with the courage and wisdom to overcome these obstacles that's being thrown my way. :)


"Life is a dream...REALIZE IT."

QOTD:

LIVE with no excuses, and LOVE with no regrets.

Dear Long Distance

ANGEL HAZE - DEAR LONG  DISTANCE

"You are words from a pen leaking onto the sheets of my bed,

the margin, indention, and knowledge they spread.

You are love; you are the love I've never been able to personify, 

but only touch, feel, and see from a distance.

You are time; the seconds, the minutes, the hours within me....

every instance." -Angel Haze.

Almost There...

Getting closer and closer to my dreams.....

Halfway packed and ready to runaway with YOU.

QOTD:

Life is like a piano. The white keys represent happiness, and the black keys represent sadness. But as you go through life's journey, remember that the black keys make music too.

KUSH & OJ [[UP]]

That feeling. Exactly the way she makes me feel. 

HIGH. No words can describe.   

Love always gets a HOLD of me.

& I control every part of it.

And she controls every part of ME.
-RA



-Random thoughts.

MIND F**K.

Oh, Abel....Abel..Abel. Abel Tesfaye, that's

The Weeknd for those who don't know, and are
just now catching on to this amazing world of
mind f**king.Why are you so amaziiing?!?!? LOL

THE WEEKND - SORRY (Prod. by ONRA)

THE WEEKND - INITIATION

FLORENCE & THE MACHINE - SHAKE IT OUT

(THE WEEKND REMIX)

AND ONCE AGAIN, YOU'RE WELCOME!!

-XO 'TILL WE OVERDOSE.

Song of the Day

KINGS OF LEON - USE SOMEBODY

You know that I could use somebody..

Someone like you, and all you know, and how you speak.

I hope it's gonna make you notice..

Someone like me.

QOTD:

Don't make your presence noticed, just make your absence felt.

BREAK UPS SUCK!!!!!!

ESPECIALLY, THIS ONE!!! LOL

QOTD:

At one point in your life you either have the things you WANT, or the reasons why you DON'T.

Thank Me Later

ANGEL HAZE. YOUTUBE HER!!! IF YOU DON'T KNOW..

WELL, NOW YOU KNOW!!!

ANGEL HAZE - UNTHINKABLE

ANGEL HAZE - NO GREATER LOVE

ANGEL HAZE - SAY SOMETHING

AHHHHHH!!! SOME *G* SHYYYT!! LOVE IT!!

YOU'RE FUCKING WELCOME!!!!!!

Song of the Day

NO DOUBT - RUNNING

Be, be the one I need,

Be the one I trust most.

Don't stop inspiring me.

Running, running, as fast as we can.

Do you think we'll make it??

We're running, running, keep holding my hand...

It's so we don't get separated.

Make A Fucking Wish!

This is a poem I just made up just now cuz I'm fucking bored.

Hope you guys enjoy it. If not, then leave my blog. kkkbyye!

Once upon a time,

I wished upon a time.

I waited & waited a long ass time,

But seriously...I think I'm running out of time.

So, I went downstairs to make a peanut butter &

jelly sandwich cuz I was hungry as fuck, cuz I

didn't have anything to eat during lunchtime.

Ummm...this poem is taking a long time...

I'm acting like this shit is a pastime.

It's fucking late and it's almost past my bedtime.

Wish I had someone to cuddle with and have sexytime...lol

Anyway,  this poem made no sense like halftime.

My dumbass could sit here too, makin' up shit 'till wintertime.

Time rhymes with yo momma...sometimes..

Ne way..let me finish this for now, so in the meantime,

I'll come back around again like ragtime.

The end. -RA

QOTD:

"In the hopes of reaching the moon, men fail to see the flowers that blossom at their feet." -Albert Schweitzer.

My Grandmother's Wake

In any man who dies, there dies with him

his first kiss, his first snow, his first love...

Not people die, but worlds die in them.

We will miss you...

QOTD:

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me." - Erma Bombeck.

Rest in Paradise

My dear grandmother finally got her angel wings. Rest in Paradise "Nanay". 

I'm sure grandpa is very excited to have you back in his life.

We are all going to miss you. We will see you again!!

Always loving you....... <3

Jan. 29, 1919 - Oct. 17, 2011

God saw you getting tired, and a cure was not to be.

So he put his arms around you and whispered, "Come with me.."

With tearful eyes we watched you, and saw you pass away.

Although we loved you dearly, we could not make you stay.

A golden heart stopped beating. Hard working hands at rest.

God broke our hearts to prove to us, he only takes the best.

Some Hood Shit

Poor poor doggie. :(

QOTD:

"Throw your heart over the fence and the rest will follow." - Norman Vincent Peale.

Jakey

He loves me...I swear. LOL

Song of the Day

"Yea, I told you that it's our world, and you're foolish thinking I'm wrong.

Stop asking how the fucking needle feel, tatt my fucking name on you,

let these nigguhs know it's real..wassup!"

QOTD:

Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. I'ts for those who's willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they long for. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it,  even if they don't see it nearly enough.

Keeping You In Our Prayers

LOL - ewww, my face!!

     There are no words that describes the love I have for my grandmother. She helped raised us and help support us through our childhood back home. She made sure we went to a good school, helped my parents put good food on the table, our holidays were memorable, and taught us how to love and care and appreciate every little thing that comes our way.

     

My "Nanay"

     She is currently on life support and the doctors said that she only has a little over 1% chance of making it. They're not even sure if she'll make it past the end of this week. So, please keep her in your prayers.

A Million and One Reasons to Smile

Sender: "Morning <3
             I wanna go to the Bunny Ranch in Pahrump.. k bye!"

Gotta love waking up to those txts!!! LOL

A Few Words of Advice

Sender: "Note to self: Keep in mind when you delete the # of the old flame you kissed (which had no spark) a few weeks ago, that she might contact you. You won't recognize the # and now she's pissed at ya! :p"


Ahh..my friends give such great advice, don't they?!?! LOL

Long Distance Relationship...

     ...SUCKS!!!! My girlfriend and I have definitely made the best out of our long distance relationship. And when I say the BEST of it... meaning everything from watching a movie together (while on the phone), talking and texting all day long, exchanging pictures, and even sleeping on the phone. Grr! It's going on 2 weeks since I last saw her. I won't see her again 'till the end of this month for Halloween and then not 'till Thanksgiving after that. Blah!
     And I'm sure ya'll are wondering how everything went during her visit down here for the very first time. Well....it was UGHMAZIING!! It definitely made it harder to be back on the phone texting/talking again once she left, but that's a long distance relationship for you I guess. She got to meet a few of my closest friends with the exception of the few that couldn't make it out. Ummm, we drank...A LOT!! lol.. Had a lot of things we planned that didn't get to do, errrr forgot to do or forgot we did?!?! 0_o But overall, it was an awesome NEW & OUT OF THE ORDINARY experience.
     What I have with RC is something different. She makes me feel brand new. The feeling she brings out of me is indescribable. I don't ever feel pressured with her or as if I'm walking on eggshells. And as far in distance and complicated as this relationship has been... I just want more and more of it. This is gonna sound super gay, but I feel like I'm stuck in a maze with her. Not really knowing which way to go or not seeing what lies ahead or what's coming next. All that really matters is we're in this maze TOGETHER. And the most a[maze]ing part about all of it, is we want to stay lost in it for as long as we possibly can. Aww.. that's gay huh?!? Hahaha #truestory tho.



-Life is nothing without love, love is nothing without hope, hope is knowing you'll be there everyday.

WTF?!?!

WHAT. THE. FUCK. IS. THAT. SHIIIIIT?!?! SMH!!

Currently Listening To...

RICK ROSS ft.NICKI MINAJ - YOU THE BOSS

"I'll do anything that you say, anything.....

'cuz you're THE BO$$."

My Beautiful Princess

Finally got to see this beautiful niece of mine last Friday after a few months!!

It still shocks me to see how much she's grown. **tear**

You will always be Auntie Rica's #1. I love you Kaycee <3.

QOTD:

You cannot be good enough for everybody, but you will always be the best for the one who deserves you.

QOTD:

"Everything is either an opportunity to grow or an obstacle to keep you from growing. You get to choose."
-Wayne Dyer.

Something for the soul...

SADE - YOUR LOVE IS KING

"Your love is king, crown you in my heart.

Your love is king, never need to part.

Your kisses ring, round and round and round my head.

Touching the very part of me, it's making my soul sing.

Tearing the very heart of me,

I'm crying out for more."

2 More Days

-RC

    THURSDAY! The BIG day!!!! I'm anxious, excited, nervous, happy, and h.....nevermind. LOL But yeah, dat!!! Another reason to make Thursday my favorite day of the week! RC will finally be here in Vegas!! This whole "thing" that I've had going on with RC has come a long way. Everything has fallen in place where they need be and I'm just very excited to bring what she and I share now to another level. I'm looking forward to showing her the most I can about the life I live here in Vegas and introducing her to the very few most important people in my life. But most importantly, I'm looking forward to spending some one-on-one time with her, vibe with her, and hear each other's stories in person. :)

~ One day at a time.....

QOTD:

The problem with most people is that they spend too much time finding someone to sleep with, instead of finding someone worth waking up to.

True Story

-RC

QOTD:

God answers 3 ways: 1) He says YES, and gives you what you WANT. 2) He says NO, and gives you something BETTER. 3) He says WAIT, and gives you the BEST.

7 More Days....

     ..after tonight!!! YESSSSSS!! In 7 days, I get to see the love of my life....FINALLY!!!! I'm nervous as hell, and excited, and anxious all at the same time. I know we are gonna have an ughmaziiing time together, that's for sure. We don't really have any set plans, and we don't really care. It's just spending time and taking in every second that we're gonna have together in those 4days that she's here is our main priority. So we'll seeeeeeeeeeee.......  :)

QOTD:

Be a girl with a mind, a bitch with an attitude, and a lady with class.

Song of the Day

THE WEEKND - LONELY STAR

"It seems like pain and regret are you best friends,

'Cause everything you do leads to them.

You think I could be your best friend,

Baby I could fuck you right."

QOTD:

"Rather than wishing for change, you first must be prepared to change."
-Catherine Pulsifer.

QOTD:

Laughter is timeless. Imagination has no age & dreams are forever.

QOTD:

Whatever life gives you, even if it hurts, just be strong and act like you're okay. Strong walls shake, but never collapse.

21 Rules of 'OUR' Love

"First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart." -Unknown

1) You can't leave me.
2) Never stop loving me.
3) Never give up on us and our dreams.
4) Always refer to rules number 1, 2, & 3.
5) When in doubt, let's have sex.
6) Never leave me mad, sad, or crying over the phone or in person.
7) We will always, ALWAYS talk about everything and not hide our feelings from each other.
8) No secrets.
9) You have to do the laundry (for RC)
10) You do dishes (for me)
11) Never lay our hands on each other.
12) Plan on moving together by our 1yr anniversary.
13) Go on a special fancy date together atleast once a month where we can dress up and love each other all over again.
14) Never let anyone come in between us.
15) Never go through a whole day without hearing from each other.
16) We put each other first before partying and stupid shit.
17) When we fight/argue, as mad as we are, we will never disregard how we made the other person feel. We will make sure to try our best to push our feelings aside to listen to one another.
18) We'll always tell each other good morning and good night/ Always kiss "hello" and "goodbye".
19) Spend the rest of your life with me
20) We're never breaking up.
21) Never break our rules.

R+R

QOTD:

"Joy is what happens when we allow ourselves to recognize how good things really are."
-Marianne Williamson

QOTD:

You can't expect to find the right someone until you know who you are, what matters to you,  and what makes your heart happy.

Ooohh Drizzy...

Let me just remind ya'll how much I love Drake's brain and

the thoughts that comes out of it! That is all! kbyye!!!

DRAKE - CLUB PARADISE

"Tell me, who did I leave behind?

You think you got to me, I can just read your mind.

You think I'm so caught up in where I am right now,

But believe I remember it all."

QOTD:

When you wake up in the morning you have two choices. To go back to sleep and keep dreaming, or wake up and start chasing them.

Song of the Day

MAXWELL - WHENEVER, WHEREVER, WHATEVER

"Lead me on girl if you must, take my heart and my love.

Take of me all that you want.

And if there's a thing that you need,

I'd give you the breath that I breathe.

And if ever you yearn for the love in me,

Whenever, wherever, whatever......"

QOTD:

GIVE a man a fish, and he'll eat for a day. TEACH a man to fish, and he'll eat for a lifetime.

QOTD:

Never just MEET someone's expectations, always EXCEED them.

Song of the Day

MELISSA POLINAR - I'M READY

"I'm ready to try falling apart, right into your arms.

I'm ready for you to take my heart,

And tell me that I'm yours, then I'll be alright.

THERE'S NO TURNING BACK,

I'm ready this time."

Perfection

     So, as most of you know or have noticed... I now have a girlfriend. Let me rephrase that, a NEW girlfriend. LOL. On my blog, she goes by the name RC. Everything about this relationship is NEW & DIFFERENT and I'm loving every fucking second of it!! The emotional connection I have with this girl is unbelievable and it's more than I could ever ask for. The only downside to this whole thing, is that I can't physically have her with me on a day-to-day basis. Yes, I'm in a long distance relationship. Like I said, something new & different..lol. But to be quite honest with you... I like it!! I mean, it's taking some time getting used to but I think this is what I need for now. It'll give me some balance of having what I want and at the same time also focus on my priorities here before I could fully jump and commit into making any major decisions with her, and vice versa. The times we have spent being apart talking and getting to know each other tho, has been worth everything, plus more. Mentally, Intellectually, Emotionally, and Personality wise.....hands down..just total PERFECTION!! And physically..that's just icing on the cake.
     I can't express enough how lucky, and fortunate, and BLESSED I am to have come across someone like RC. Although, we did meet in the most unconventional way.....and really, it all seems normal for us. Every decision that we've made so far just felt right. And everything that we we have planned since day one is slowly...SLOWWWLY..lol, but surely is falling in place. Overall, I can't complain. At this point in my life, I am very happy. No words can explain. JUST HAPPY. I can't wait for her to come visit me and meet few of my closest friends. I'm counting down the days.....22 days from today to be exact, lol. Just to feel her next to me and to spend every second, of every minute, of every hour of the day that she's here... I can only imagine how it would be. All I know now, is that time cannot go by any faster until that day, and once she's here...I know that there will never be enough time in the world for us to spend together. :( It's gonna be tough, but we both know this. All we can really do is let faith take its course and us take each day as it comes and make the most of it. One thing I know for sure is that, I never want this feeling to go away...


"So it's not going to be easy. It's going to be really hard. And we're going to have to work at this everyday. But I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday." 
-The Notebook




     
   

QOTD:

The only thing that stands between a person and what they want in life is the will to try it, and the faith to believe it's possible.

Just Sayin'...

Everyone should wake up feeling this UGHHMAZIING! kbyyye!

QOTD:

Whatever you allow in your mind determines ur strength, weakness, and health. Shut the negative thoughts out...YOU'RE BLESSED!

Song of the Day

RYAN LESLIE - I CHOOSE YOU

"Said I knew it was right, so I took the chance,

Disregarded the challenge of the circumstance.

Now you're too big a part for me to let you go, I promise.

Over the others, over my pride,

Over the faults I have in my life...

I choose you."

QOTD:

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

BLESSED

     Indeed. I must say that I am truly blessed to be where I am right now. I can't say it enough! My future is looking brighter and my life right now is pretty fucking ughmaziing!! I appreciate the love and care that the very few REAL friends that I do have show me. I couldn't be any happier to leave behind the ones that I did in my past and bring along with me the most amazing set of friends. They are my sanity. My family, as dysfunctional as it is, have given me the best support/advice they could give me. I couldn't ask for more. And most importantly, the one I call my Love. I couldn't thank God enough for bringing you in my life at the most perfect time. You definitely have made my days better and brighter. And the emotional connection that I do share with you is unbelievable. I'm excited to see what our future holds.
     Everything is happening by faith. And by faith, all the pieces of the puzzle is slowly starting to come together. I haven't been this happy in a while and my mind, and sense of direction in life hasn't been this clear and focused. I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be. I can truly, and genuinely say that I'm happy and that things can only get better from here.

"As your faith strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit." 
-Emmanuel Tenney

Nothing Even Matters

"Do you know I'm fallin' for you? Can you tell?" -RC

Song of the Day

P.DIDDY feat. R.KeLLY - SATISFY YOU

"When you're weak i'll make you strong. Here's where you belong.

I ain't perfect but I promise I won't do you wrong.

Keep you away from harm, my love is protected,

I'll wrap you in my arms so you'll never feel neglected.

I'll just make you aware that what we have is rare.

In the moment of despair, I'm that courage when you're scared.

Loyal, down for you, soon as I saw you..

Wanted to be there so I could hold it down for you."

New York State of Mind

     So as most of you know, I've always wanted to move to New York and give my life a try there. I don't know what it is about New York but everything about the lifestyle there and the culture attracts me. Anywhere from the city life, to taking the cabs/subways/trains for transportation, to the weather. I've even had friends tell me that I would love it there and that I would most definitely fit in there. I was supposed to plan a big move to NY last summer, but due to some "unresolved" situations here I decided to put it on hold.
     I wasn't born here in Las Vegas, but I consider this city my hometown. I was raised here (16yrs) and Las Vegas is all I've ever known. I've visited other cities but there's definitely no place like home for me. We have everything in Las Vegas except a theme park and the beaches. We drive 5hrs to California for all of that..lol. Aside from the glitz and glamour of this fabulous city, I do have all of my immediate family members here and the majority of my friends. So the attachment to this city is pretty strong! But to be quite honest.... everything here has become a cycle for me and I need change. I don't have the energy nor the desire to even want to go out anymore. Last night, on a Friday night in Las Vegas, I spent it in my pajamas playing fetch with my dog. That alone I think got my step-mom worried and decided to have a one-on-one talk with me. -_-
     So as I was in the kitchen scarfing down my PB&J sandwich, my step-mother walks in there and asks me,

My Step-mom: "So why don't you consider leaving Las Vegas and move to NY?!?!...I mean you have always wanted to move there. And you can do so much more there with your life. You are still young and you have so many talents Rica, don't waste it all away here." 


Me: "I'm just scared. My family is here and I only have friends there."


My Step-mom: "So what Rica?! Your family is always gonna be here. Las Vegas will always be here and you will have many friends everywhere you go. What are you so scared of?!? What have you got to lose? Live your life and don't let anything hold you back. If you make mistakes, just learn from them and keep going. You're free...take risks."

     I really didn't say much for the very first time in my life. And if you know me, you know I have something to say about everrrrryythiiiing! She was right about everything. EVERY LITTLE THING SHE SAID MADE A VALID POINT. She got me thinking alot after that lecture in the kitchen. I mean there's just so many reasons as to why I should pack up and start a whole new life in NY and live life and take advantage of eveything I'm able to now. I am free. So why do I walk around like I have a ball & chain attached to my leg?!?! And I do feel like I'm at a standstill point here in my life in Vegas. I feel like I'm not growing as much as I should, or as much as I would like to. So......I've made up my mind and I've decided that I won't put this decision on hold any longer. I WILL BE MOVING TO NEW YORK and will work towards that goal from this day forth and possibly make this all happen within the next year.
     I think that this decision will change my life drastically. It will open up a lot more doors of opportunity and just open up a whole new world than what I'm used to. And as scary as it seems for me, I do have the support of my family, my few good friends and also my new found love. I am free and I'm ready to take this risk. I'm ready to add another chapter in my life. IT'S GO TIME...THE DREAM IS REAL.


"They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself." - A.Warhol




   

QOTD:

If you think sunshine brings you happiness, then you haven't danced in the rain.

From Ghandi

1. Change

“You must be the change you want to see in the world.”

“As human beings, our greatness lies not so much in being able to remake the world – that is the myth of the atomic age – as in being able to remake ourselves.”

2. Control.

“Nobody can hurt me without my permission.”

3. Forgiveness

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.”

“An eye for eye only ends up making the whole world blind.”

4. Action.

“An ounce of practice is worth more than tons of preaching.”

5. The present moment.

“I do not want to foresee the future. I am concerned with taking care of the present. God has given me no control over the moment following.”

6. Everyone is human.

“I claim to be a simple individual liable to err like any other fellow mortal. I own, however, that I have humility enough to confess my errors and to retrace my steps.”

“It is unwise to be too sure of one’s own wisdom. It is healthy to be reminded that the strongest might weaken and the wisest might err.”

7. Persist.

“First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.”

8. Goodness.

“I look only to the good qualities of men. Not being faultless myself, I won’t presume to probe into the faults of others.”

“I suppose leadership at one time meant muscles; but today it means getting along with people.”

9. Truth

“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.”

“Always aim at complete harmony of thought and word and deed. Always aim at purifying your thoughts and everything will be well.”

10. Development.

“Constant development is the law of life, and a man who always tries to maintain his dogmas in order to appear consistent drives himself into a false position."

QOTD:

The best relationship is one in which, your love for each other far exceeds your need for each other.

Nothing Even Matters

You're perfect in my eyes. In the Bible it says love doesn't see flaws and doesn't stick with problems, but moves past them and doesn't look back. I'm not trippin' about any problems we might encounter. And I see no flaws in you... -RC

Song of the Day

BOB MARLEY feat. LAURYN HILL - 

TURN YOUR LIGHTS DOWN LOW

"Loving you i like a song I replay,

Every three minutes and thirty seconds of everyday.

And every chorus was written for us to recite,

Every beautiful melody of devotion every night.

And every word, and every second, and every third,

Expresses the happiness more clearly than ever heard."

Something for the soul...

CASTING CROWNS - WHO AM I

"Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin,

would look on me with love, and watch me rise again.

Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea,

would call out through the rain, and calm the storm in me."