QOTD:

"Everything is either an opportunity to grow or an obstacle to keep you from growing. You get to choose."
-Wayne Dyer.

Something for the soul...

SADE - YOUR LOVE IS KING

"Your love is king, crown you in my heart.

Your love is king, never need to part.

Your kisses ring, round and round and round my head.

Touching the very part of me, it's making my soul sing.

Tearing the very heart of me,

I'm crying out for more."

2 More Days

-RC

    THURSDAY! The BIG day!!!! I'm anxious, excited, nervous, happy, and h.....nevermind. LOL But yeah, dat!!! Another reason to make Thursday my favorite day of the week! RC will finally be here in Vegas!! This whole "thing" that I've had going on with RC has come a long way. Everything has fallen in place where they need be and I'm just very excited to bring what she and I share now to another level. I'm looking forward to showing her the most I can about the life I live here in Vegas and introducing her to the very few most important people in my life. But most importantly, I'm looking forward to spending some one-on-one time with her, vibe with her, and hear each other's stories in person. :)

~ One day at a time.....

QOTD:

The problem with most people is that they spend too much time finding someone to sleep with, instead of finding someone worth waking up to.

True Story

-RC

QOTD:

God answers 3 ways: 1) He says YES, and gives you what you WANT. 2) He says NO, and gives you something BETTER. 3) He says WAIT, and gives you the BEST.

7 More Days....

     ..after tonight!!! YESSSSSS!! In 7 days, I get to see the love of my life....FINALLY!!!! I'm nervous as hell, and excited, and anxious all at the same time. I know we are gonna have an ughmaziiing time together, that's for sure. We don't really have any set plans, and we don't really care. It's just spending time and taking in every second that we're gonna have together in those 4days that she's here is our main priority. So we'll seeeeeeeeeeee.......  :)

QOTD:

Be a girl with a mind, a bitch with an attitude, and a lady with class.

Song of the Day

THE WEEKND - LONELY STAR

"It seems like pain and regret are you best friends,

'Cause everything you do leads to them.

You think I could be your best friend,

Baby I could fuck you right."

QOTD:

"Rather than wishing for change, you first must be prepared to change."
-Catherine Pulsifer.

QOTD:

Laughter is timeless. Imagination has no age & dreams are forever.

QOTD:

Whatever life gives you, even if it hurts, just be strong and act like you're okay. Strong walls shake, but never collapse.

21 Rules of 'OUR' Love

"First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart." -Unknown

1) You can't leave me.
2) Never stop loving me.
3) Never give up on us and our dreams.
4) Always refer to rules number 1, 2, & 3.
5) When in doubt, let's have sex.
6) Never leave me mad, sad, or crying over the phone or in person.
7) We will always, ALWAYS talk about everything and not hide our feelings from each other.
8) No secrets.
9) You have to do the laundry (for RC)
10) You do dishes (for me)
11) Never lay our hands on each other.
12) Plan on moving together by our 1yr anniversary.
13) Go on a special fancy date together atleast once a month where we can dress up and love each other all over again.
14) Never let anyone come in between us.
15) Never go through a whole day without hearing from each other.
16) We put each other first before partying and stupid shit.
17) When we fight/argue, as mad as we are, we will never disregard how we made the other person feel. We will make sure to try our best to push our feelings aside to listen to one another.
18) We'll always tell each other good morning and good night/ Always kiss "hello" and "goodbye".
19) Spend the rest of your life with me
20) We're never breaking up.
21) Never break our rules.

R+R

QOTD:

"Joy is what happens when we allow ourselves to recognize how good things really are."
-Marianne Williamson

QOTD:

You can't expect to find the right someone until you know who you are, what matters to you,  and what makes your heart happy.

Ooohh Drizzy...

Let me just remind ya'll how much I love Drake's brain and

the thoughts that comes out of it! That is all! kbyye!!!

DRAKE - CLUB PARADISE

"Tell me, who did I leave behind?

You think you got to me, I can just read your mind.

You think I'm so caught up in where I am right now,

But believe I remember it all."

QOTD:

When you wake up in the morning you have two choices. To go back to sleep and keep dreaming, or wake up and start chasing them.

Song of the Day

MAXWELL - WHENEVER, WHEREVER, WHATEVER

"Lead me on girl if you must, take my heart and my love.

Take of me all that you want.

And if there's a thing that you need,

I'd give you the breath that I breathe.

And if ever you yearn for the love in me,

Whenever, wherever, whatever......"

QOTD:

GIVE a man a fish, and he'll eat for a day. TEACH a man to fish, and he'll eat for a lifetime.

QOTD:

Never just MEET someone's expectations, always EXCEED them.

Song of the Day

MELISSA POLINAR - I'M READY

"I'm ready to try falling apart, right into your arms.

I'm ready for you to take my heart,

And tell me that I'm yours, then I'll be alright.

THERE'S NO TURNING BACK,

I'm ready this time."

Perfection

     So, as most of you know or have noticed... I now have a girlfriend. Let me rephrase that, a NEW girlfriend. LOL. On my blog, she goes by the name RC. Everything about this relationship is NEW & DIFFERENT and I'm loving every fucking second of it!! The emotional connection I have with this girl is unbelievable and it's more than I could ever ask for. The only downside to this whole thing, is that I can't physically have her with me on a day-to-day basis. Yes, I'm in a long distance relationship. Like I said, something new & different..lol. But to be quite honest with you... I like it!! I mean, it's taking some time getting used to but I think this is what I need for now. It'll give me some balance of having what I want and at the same time also focus on my priorities here before I could fully jump and commit into making any major decisions with her, and vice versa. The times we have spent being apart talking and getting to know each other tho, has been worth everything, plus more. Mentally, Intellectually, Emotionally, and Personality wise.....hands down..just total PERFECTION!! And physically..that's just icing on the cake.
     I can't express enough how lucky, and fortunate, and BLESSED I am to have come across someone like RC. Although, we did meet in the most unconventional way.....and really, it all seems normal for us. Every decision that we've made so far just felt right. And everything that we we have planned since day one is slowly...SLOWWWLY..lol, but surely is falling in place. Overall, I can't complain. At this point in my life, I am very happy. No words can explain. JUST HAPPY. I can't wait for her to come visit me and meet few of my closest friends. I'm counting down the days.....22 days from today to be exact, lol. Just to feel her next to me and to spend every second, of every minute, of every hour of the day that she's here... I can only imagine how it would be. All I know now, is that time cannot go by any faster until that day, and once she's here...I know that there will never be enough time in the world for us to spend together. :( It's gonna be tough, but we both know this. All we can really do is let faith take its course and us take each day as it comes and make the most of it. One thing I know for sure is that, I never want this feeling to go away...


"So it's not going to be easy. It's going to be really hard. And we're going to have to work at this everyday. But I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday." 
-The Notebook




     
   

QOTD:

The only thing that stands between a person and what they want in life is the will to try it, and the faith to believe it's possible.

Just Sayin'...

Everyone should wake up feeling this UGHHMAZIING! kbyyye!

QOTD:

Whatever you allow in your mind determines ur strength, weakness, and health. Shut the negative thoughts out...YOU'RE BLESSED!

Song of the Day

RYAN LESLIE - I CHOOSE YOU

"Said I knew it was right, so I took the chance,

Disregarded the challenge of the circumstance.

Now you're too big a part for me to let you go, I promise.

Over the others, over my pride,

Over the faults I have in my life...

I choose you."

QOTD:

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

BLESSED

     Indeed. I must say that I am truly blessed to be where I am right now. I can't say it enough! My future is looking brighter and my life right now is pretty fucking ughmaziing!! I appreciate the love and care that the very few REAL friends that I do have show me. I couldn't be any happier to leave behind the ones that I did in my past and bring along with me the most amazing set of friends. They are my sanity. My family, as dysfunctional as it is, have given me the best support/advice they could give me. I couldn't ask for more. And most importantly, the one I call my Love. I couldn't thank God enough for bringing you in my life at the most perfect time. You definitely have made my days better and brighter. And the emotional connection that I do share with you is unbelievable. I'm excited to see what our future holds.
     Everything is happening by faith. And by faith, all the pieces of the puzzle is slowly starting to come together. I haven't been this happy in a while and my mind, and sense of direction in life hasn't been this clear and focused. I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be. I can truly, and genuinely say that I'm happy and that things can only get better from here.

"As your faith strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit." 
-Emmanuel Tenney

Nothing Even Matters

"Do you know I'm fallin' for you? Can you tell?" -RC

Song of the Day

P.DIDDY feat. R.KeLLY - SATISFY YOU

"When you're weak i'll make you strong. Here's where you belong.

I ain't perfect but I promise I won't do you wrong.

Keep you away from harm, my love is protected,

I'll wrap you in my arms so you'll never feel neglected.

I'll just make you aware that what we have is rare.

In the moment of despair, I'm that courage when you're scared.

Loyal, down for you, soon as I saw you..

Wanted to be there so I could hold it down for you."

New York State of Mind

     So as most of you know, I've always wanted to move to New York and give my life a try there. I don't know what it is about New York but everything about the lifestyle there and the culture attracts me. Anywhere from the city life, to taking the cabs/subways/trains for transportation, to the weather. I've even had friends tell me that I would love it there and that I would most definitely fit in there. I was supposed to plan a big move to NY last summer, but due to some "unresolved" situations here I decided to put it on hold.
     I wasn't born here in Las Vegas, but I consider this city my hometown. I was raised here (16yrs) and Las Vegas is all I've ever known. I've visited other cities but there's definitely no place like home for me. We have everything in Las Vegas except a theme park and the beaches. We drive 5hrs to California for all of that..lol. Aside from the glitz and glamour of this fabulous city, I do have all of my immediate family members here and the majority of my friends. So the attachment to this city is pretty strong! But to be quite honest.... everything here has become a cycle for me and I need change. I don't have the energy nor the desire to even want to go out anymore. Last night, on a Friday night in Las Vegas, I spent it in my pajamas playing fetch with my dog. That alone I think got my step-mom worried and decided to have a one-on-one talk with me. -_-
     So as I was in the kitchen scarfing down my PB&J sandwich, my step-mother walks in there and asks me,

My Step-mom: "So why don't you consider leaving Las Vegas and move to NY?!?!...I mean you have always wanted to move there. And you can do so much more there with your life. You are still young and you have so many talents Rica, don't waste it all away here." 


Me: "I'm just scared. My family is here and I only have friends there."


My Step-mom: "So what Rica?! Your family is always gonna be here. Las Vegas will always be here and you will have many friends everywhere you go. What are you so scared of?!? What have you got to lose? Live your life and don't let anything hold you back. If you make mistakes, just learn from them and keep going. You're free...take risks."

     I really didn't say much for the very first time in my life. And if you know me, you know I have something to say about everrrrryythiiiing! She was right about everything. EVERY LITTLE THING SHE SAID MADE A VALID POINT. She got me thinking alot after that lecture in the kitchen. I mean there's just so many reasons as to why I should pack up and start a whole new life in NY and live life and take advantage of eveything I'm able to now. I am free. So why do I walk around like I have a ball & chain attached to my leg?!?! And I do feel like I'm at a standstill point here in my life in Vegas. I feel like I'm not growing as much as I should, or as much as I would like to. So......I've made up my mind and I've decided that I won't put this decision on hold any longer. I WILL BE MOVING TO NEW YORK and will work towards that goal from this day forth and possibly make this all happen within the next year.
     I think that this decision will change my life drastically. It will open up a lot more doors of opportunity and just open up a whole new world than what I'm used to. And as scary as it seems for me, I do have the support of my family, my few good friends and also my new found love. I am free and I'm ready to take this risk. I'm ready to add another chapter in my life. IT'S GO TIME...THE DREAM IS REAL.


"They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself." - A.Warhol




   

QOTD:

If you think sunshine brings you happiness, then you haven't danced in the rain.

From Ghandi

1. Change

“You must be the change you want to see in the world.”

“As human beings, our greatness lies not so much in being able to remake the world – that is the myth of the atomic age – as in being able to remake ourselves.”

2. Control.

“Nobody can hurt me without my permission.”

3. Forgiveness

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.”

“An eye for eye only ends up making the whole world blind.”

4. Action.

“An ounce of practice is worth more than tons of preaching.”

5. The present moment.

“I do not want to foresee the future. I am concerned with taking care of the present. God has given me no control over the moment following.”

6. Everyone is human.

“I claim to be a simple individual liable to err like any other fellow mortal. I own, however, that I have humility enough to confess my errors and to retrace my steps.”

“It is unwise to be too sure of one’s own wisdom. It is healthy to be reminded that the strongest might weaken and the wisest might err.”

7. Persist.

“First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.”

8. Goodness.

“I look only to the good qualities of men. Not being faultless myself, I won’t presume to probe into the faults of others.”

“I suppose leadership at one time meant muscles; but today it means getting along with people.”

9. Truth

“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.”

“Always aim at complete harmony of thought and word and deed. Always aim at purifying your thoughts and everything will be well.”

10. Development.

“Constant development is the law of life, and a man who always tries to maintain his dogmas in order to appear consistent drives himself into a false position."

QOTD:

The best relationship is one in which, your love for each other far exceeds your need for each other.

Nothing Even Matters

You're perfect in my eyes. In the Bible it says love doesn't see flaws and doesn't stick with problems, but moves past them and doesn't look back. I'm not trippin' about any problems we might encounter. And I see no flaws in you... -RC

Song of the Day

BOB MARLEY feat. LAURYN HILL - 

TURN YOUR LIGHTS DOWN LOW

"Loving you i like a song I replay,

Every three minutes and thirty seconds of everyday.

And every chorus was written for us to recite,

Every beautiful melody of devotion every night.

And every word, and every second, and every third,

Expresses the happiness more clearly than ever heard."

Something for the soul...

CASTING CROWNS - WHO AM I

"Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin,

would look on me with love, and watch me rise again.

Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea,

would call out through the rain, and calm the storm in me."

QOTD:

Live without pretending//Love without depending//Listen without defending//Speak without offending.

I Beg Your Pardon?!

     So, last time I checked before I seriously started talking to "RC",...I was SINGLE. Yes, single! As in I wasn't committed to anyone nor was I obligated to be with someone. As most of you know, my break-up took a big emotional toll on me. But I got over that shit and moved the fuck on! LOL Anyway, let's not talk about the past. Well, as I was saying... SINGLE! I met some new cool people and when I decided I was ready to start dating, I made myself  more open into actually talking to them, both to my new and old friends/admirers (or whatever you want to call it).
     First off, let me just say that I'm nice to EVERYONE I meet. I'm nice to everyone in general, unless you give me reasons not to. I talk to everyone pretty much on the same level... and that is the friendship level. if we hit off as friends, cool. If not... then BYE! And if we hit it off on more than a friendship level then GREAT! Here's my problem tho, if you're going to talk to me.... just be fucking honest! If there's something you see that is bugging you, or if there's something you don't like that you think you need to ask me about, SAY SOMETHING. Number one, I'm not a mind reader. And number two, how would I know how you're feeling if you don't tell me?!?! I'm coming out of a 2yr relationship. Getting over a very emotional break-up on my behalf, and I made it crystal clear to EVERYONE that I will be dating. So for a solid 2mos now, my dating/love life has been an open book.
      I did talk to a few that I hit it off with on more than a friendship level. But, it's kind of upsetting tho, that all of a sudden I'm being made out to be this "player". First off, to the ones who claimed I never put forth any effort into taking our friendship a step further, well there was a reason, no..there were reasonssss for that. Hence, me not really making any effort into taking it a step further.. SMH. To the ones that had me before whom are so quick to judge or throw your opinions on the decisions I'm making now....DON'T! Just go away!! A relationship/dating/life advice is the last thing I need to hear from ya'll! Hahaha.. And to the ones that took my kindness as a wrong signal that lead you to expect something more than what wasn't..I'm sorry, but that's not my fault. How you take what I give you is all on you. I can't babysit your emotions. You read my social media, you see the pics on my blog, you text me on a casual level. If you've  ever wondered and really wanted to know what was really up, or how I felt about you and blah blah blah then guess fucking what!?! ALL YA HAD TA DO WAS ASK! SMH!
     So yeah...just needed to throw that out there. I'm down to chill and hang as long as you know your position with me and vice versa, and you don't do anything to disrespect my wishes. But other than that..if that is something that we can't make happen, then good riddance to ya! :) I'm trying to enjoy life and either you want to be apart of it or not. At the end of the day..life goes on and so will I.



Never mistake motion for action. -Ernest Hemingway