Song of the Day

MAXWELL - WHENEVER, WHEREVER, WHATEVER

"Lead me on girl if you must, take my heart and my love.

Take of me all that you want.

And if there's a thing that you need,

I'd give you the breath that I breathe.

And if ever you yearn for the love in me,

Whenever, wherever, whatever......"

QOTD:

GIVE a man a fish, and he'll eat for a day. TEACH a man to fish, and he'll eat for a lifetime.

QOTD:

Never just MEET someone's expectations, always EXCEED them.

Song of the Day

MELISSA POLINAR - I'M READY

"I'm ready to try falling apart, right into your arms.

I'm ready for you to take my heart,

And tell me that I'm yours, then I'll be alright.

THERE'S NO TURNING BACK,

I'm ready this time."

Perfection

     So, as most of you know or have noticed... I now have a girlfriend. Let me rephrase that, a NEW girlfriend. LOL. On my blog, she goes by the name RC. Everything about this relationship is NEW & DIFFERENT and I'm loving every fucking second of it!! The emotional connection I have with this girl is unbelievable and it's more than I could ever ask for. The only downside to this whole thing, is that I can't physically have her with me on a day-to-day basis. Yes, I'm in a long distance relationship. Like I said, something new & different..lol. But to be quite honest with you... I like it!! I mean, it's taking some time getting used to but I think this is what I need for now. It'll give me some balance of having what I want and at the same time also focus on my priorities here before I could fully jump and commit into making any major decisions with her, and vice versa. The times we have spent being apart talking and getting to know each other tho, has been worth everything, plus more. Mentally, Intellectually, Emotionally, and Personality wise.....hands down..just total PERFECTION!! And physically..that's just icing on the cake.
     I can't express enough how lucky, and fortunate, and BLESSED I am to have come across someone like RC. Although, we did meet in the most unconventional way.....and really, it all seems normal for us. Every decision that we've made so far just felt right. And everything that we we have planned since day one is slowly...SLOWWWLY..lol, but surely is falling in place. Overall, I can't complain. At this point in my life, I am very happy. No words can explain. JUST HAPPY. I can't wait for her to come visit me and meet few of my closest friends. I'm counting down the days.....22 days from today to be exact, lol. Just to feel her next to me and to spend every second, of every minute, of every hour of the day that she's here... I can only imagine how it would be. All I know now, is that time cannot go by any faster until that day, and once she's here...I know that there will never be enough time in the world for us to spend together. :( It's gonna be tough, but we both know this. All we can really do is let faith take its course and us take each day as it comes and make the most of it. One thing I know for sure is that, I never want this feeling to go away...


"So it's not going to be easy. It's going to be really hard. And we're going to have to work at this everyday. But I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday." 
-The Notebook




     
   

QOTD:

The only thing that stands between a person and what they want in life is the will to try it, and the faith to believe it's possible.

Just Sayin'...

Everyone should wake up feeling this UGHHMAZIING! kbyyye!

QOTD:

Whatever you allow in your mind determines ur strength, weakness, and health. Shut the negative thoughts out...YOU'RE BLESSED!

Song of the Day

RYAN LESLIE - I CHOOSE YOU

"Said I knew it was right, so I took the chance,

Disregarded the challenge of the circumstance.

Now you're too big a part for me to let you go, I promise.

Over the others, over my pride,

Over the faults I have in my life...

I choose you."

QOTD:

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

BLESSED

     Indeed. I must say that I am truly blessed to be where I am right now. I can't say it enough! My future is looking brighter and my life right now is pretty fucking ughmaziing!! I appreciate the love and care that the very few REAL friends that I do have show me. I couldn't be any happier to leave behind the ones that I did in my past and bring along with me the most amazing set of friends. They are my sanity. My family, as dysfunctional as it is, have given me the best support/advice they could give me. I couldn't ask for more. And most importantly, the one I call my Love. I couldn't thank God enough for bringing you in my life at the most perfect time. You definitely have made my days better and brighter. And the emotional connection that I do share with you is unbelievable. I'm excited to see what our future holds.
     Everything is happening by faith. And by faith, all the pieces of the puzzle is slowly starting to come together. I haven't been this happy in a while and my mind, and sense of direction in life hasn't been this clear and focused. I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be. I can truly, and genuinely say that I'm happy and that things can only get better from here.

"As your faith strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit." 
-Emmanuel Tenney

Nothing Even Matters

"Do you know I'm fallin' for you? Can you tell?" -RC

Song of the Day

P.DIDDY feat. R.KeLLY - SATISFY YOU

"When you're weak i'll make you strong. Here's where you belong.

I ain't perfect but I promise I won't do you wrong.

Keep you away from harm, my love is protected,

I'll wrap you in my arms so you'll never feel neglected.

I'll just make you aware that what we have is rare.

In the moment of despair, I'm that courage when you're scared.

Loyal, down for you, soon as I saw you..

Wanted to be there so I could hold it down for you."

New York State of Mind

     So as most of you know, I've always wanted to move to New York and give my life a try there. I don't know what it is about New York but everything about the lifestyle there and the culture attracts me. Anywhere from the city life, to taking the cabs/subways/trains for transportation, to the weather. I've even had friends tell me that I would love it there and that I would most definitely fit in there. I was supposed to plan a big move to NY last summer, but due to some "unresolved" situations here I decided to put it on hold.
     I wasn't born here in Las Vegas, but I consider this city my hometown. I was raised here (16yrs) and Las Vegas is all I've ever known. I've visited other cities but there's definitely no place like home for me. We have everything in Las Vegas except a theme park and the beaches. We drive 5hrs to California for all of that..lol. Aside from the glitz and glamour of this fabulous city, I do have all of my immediate family members here and the majority of my friends. So the attachment to this city is pretty strong! But to be quite honest.... everything here has become a cycle for me and I need change. I don't have the energy nor the desire to even want to go out anymore. Last night, on a Friday night in Las Vegas, I spent it in my pajamas playing fetch with my dog. That alone I think got my step-mom worried and decided to have a one-on-one talk with me. -_-
     So as I was in the kitchen scarfing down my PB&J sandwich, my step-mother walks in there and asks me,

My Step-mom: "So why don't you consider leaving Las Vegas and move to NY?!?!...I mean you have always wanted to move there. And you can do so much more there with your life. You are still young and you have so many talents Rica, don't waste it all away here." 


Me: "I'm just scared. My family is here and I only have friends there."


My Step-mom: "So what Rica?! Your family is always gonna be here. Las Vegas will always be here and you will have many friends everywhere you go. What are you so scared of?!? What have you got to lose? Live your life and don't let anything hold you back. If you make mistakes, just learn from them and keep going. You're free...take risks."

     I really didn't say much for the very first time in my life. And if you know me, you know I have something to say about everrrrryythiiiing! She was right about everything. EVERY LITTLE THING SHE SAID MADE A VALID POINT. She got me thinking alot after that lecture in the kitchen. I mean there's just so many reasons as to why I should pack up and start a whole new life in NY and live life and take advantage of eveything I'm able to now. I am free. So why do I walk around like I have a ball & chain attached to my leg?!?! And I do feel like I'm at a standstill point here in my life in Vegas. I feel like I'm not growing as much as I should, or as much as I would like to. So......I've made up my mind and I've decided that I won't put this decision on hold any longer. I WILL BE MOVING TO NEW YORK and will work towards that goal from this day forth and possibly make this all happen within the next year.
     I think that this decision will change my life drastically. It will open up a lot more doors of opportunity and just open up a whole new world than what I'm used to. And as scary as it seems for me, I do have the support of my family, my few good friends and also my new found love. I am free and I'm ready to take this risk. I'm ready to add another chapter in my life. IT'S GO TIME...THE DREAM IS REAL.


"They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself." - A.Warhol




   

QOTD:

If you think sunshine brings you happiness, then you haven't danced in the rain.