New York State of Mind

     So as most of you know, I've always wanted to move to New York and give my life a try there. I don't know what it is about New York but everything about the lifestyle there and the culture attracts me. Anywhere from the city life, to taking the cabs/subways/trains for transportation, to the weather. I've even had friends tell me that I would love it there and that I would most definitely fit in there. I was supposed to plan a big move to NY last summer, but due to some "unresolved" situations here I decided to put it on hold.
     I wasn't born here in Las Vegas, but I consider this city my hometown. I was raised here (16yrs) and Las Vegas is all I've ever known. I've visited other cities but there's definitely no place like home for me. We have everything in Las Vegas except a theme park and the beaches. We drive 5hrs to California for all of that..lol. Aside from the glitz and glamour of this fabulous city, I do have all of my immediate family members here and the majority of my friends. So the attachment to this city is pretty strong! But to be quite honest.... everything here has become a cycle for me and I need change. I don't have the energy nor the desire to even want to go out anymore. Last night, on a Friday night in Las Vegas, I spent it in my pajamas playing fetch with my dog. That alone I think got my step-mom worried and decided to have a one-on-one talk with me. -_-
     So as I was in the kitchen scarfing down my PB&J sandwich, my step-mother walks in there and asks me,

My Step-mom: "So why don't you consider leaving Las Vegas and move to NY?!?!...I mean you have always wanted to move there. And you can do so much more there with your life. You are still young and you have so many talents Rica, don't waste it all away here." 


Me: "I'm just scared. My family is here and I only have friends there."


My Step-mom: "So what Rica?! Your family is always gonna be here. Las Vegas will always be here and you will have many friends everywhere you go. What are you so scared of?!? What have you got to lose? Live your life and don't let anything hold you back. If you make mistakes, just learn from them and keep going. You're free...take risks."

     I really didn't say much for the very first time in my life. And if you know me, you know I have something to say about everrrrryythiiiing! She was right about everything. EVERY LITTLE THING SHE SAID MADE A VALID POINT. She got me thinking alot after that lecture in the kitchen. I mean there's just so many reasons as to why I should pack up and start a whole new life in NY and live life and take advantage of eveything I'm able to now. I am free. So why do I walk around like I have a ball & chain attached to my leg?!?! And I do feel like I'm at a standstill point here in my life in Vegas. I feel like I'm not growing as much as I should, or as much as I would like to. So......I've made up my mind and I've decided that I won't put this decision on hold any longer. I WILL BE MOVING TO NEW YORK and will work towards that goal from this day forth and possibly make this all happen within the next year.
     I think that this decision will change my life drastically. It will open up a lot more doors of opportunity and just open up a whole new world than what I'm used to. And as scary as it seems for me, I do have the support of my family, my few good friends and also my new found love. I am free and I'm ready to take this risk. I'm ready to add another chapter in my life. IT'S GO TIME...THE DREAM IS REAL.


"They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself." - A.Warhol




   

QOTD:

If you think sunshine brings you happiness, then you haven't danced in the rain.

From Ghandi

1. Change

“You must be the change you want to see in the world.”

“As human beings, our greatness lies not so much in being able to remake the world – that is the myth of the atomic age – as in being able to remake ourselves.”

2. Control.

“Nobody can hurt me without my permission.”

3. Forgiveness

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.”

“An eye for eye only ends up making the whole world blind.”

4. Action.

“An ounce of practice is worth more than tons of preaching.”

5. The present moment.

“I do not want to foresee the future. I am concerned with taking care of the present. God has given me no control over the moment following.”

6. Everyone is human.

“I claim to be a simple individual liable to err like any other fellow mortal. I own, however, that I have humility enough to confess my errors and to retrace my steps.”

“It is unwise to be too sure of one’s own wisdom. It is healthy to be reminded that the strongest might weaken and the wisest might err.”

7. Persist.

“First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.”

8. Goodness.

“I look only to the good qualities of men. Not being faultless myself, I won’t presume to probe into the faults of others.”

“I suppose leadership at one time meant muscles; but today it means getting along with people.”

9. Truth

“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.”

“Always aim at complete harmony of thought and word and deed. Always aim at purifying your thoughts and everything will be well.”

10. Development.

“Constant development is the law of life, and a man who always tries to maintain his dogmas in order to appear consistent drives himself into a false position."

QOTD:

The best relationship is one in which, your love for each other far exceeds your need for each other.

Nothing Even Matters

You're perfect in my eyes. In the Bible it says love doesn't see flaws and doesn't stick with problems, but moves past them and doesn't look back. I'm not trippin' about any problems we might encounter. And I see no flaws in you... -RC

Song of the Day

BOB MARLEY feat. LAURYN HILL - 

TURN YOUR LIGHTS DOWN LOW

"Loving you i like a song I replay,

Every three minutes and thirty seconds of everyday.

And every chorus was written for us to recite,

Every beautiful melody of devotion every night.

And every word, and every second, and every third,

Expresses the happiness more clearly than ever heard."

Something for the soul...

CASTING CROWNS - WHO AM I

"Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin,

would look on me with love, and watch me rise again.

Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea,

would call out through the rain, and calm the storm in me."

QOTD:

Live without pretending//Love without depending//Listen without defending//Speak without offending.

I Beg Your Pardon?!

     So, last time I checked before I seriously started talking to "RC",...I was SINGLE. Yes, single! As in I wasn't committed to anyone nor was I obligated to be with someone. As most of you know, my break-up took a big emotional toll on me. But I got over that shit and moved the fuck on! LOL Anyway, let's not talk about the past. Well, as I was saying... SINGLE! I met some new cool people and when I decided I was ready to start dating, I made myself  more open into actually talking to them, both to my new and old friends/admirers (or whatever you want to call it).
     First off, let me just say that I'm nice to EVERYONE I meet. I'm nice to everyone in general, unless you give me reasons not to. I talk to everyone pretty much on the same level... and that is the friendship level. if we hit off as friends, cool. If not... then BYE! And if we hit it off on more than a friendship level then GREAT! Here's my problem tho, if you're going to talk to me.... just be fucking honest! If there's something you see that is bugging you, or if there's something you don't like that you think you need to ask me about, SAY SOMETHING. Number one, I'm not a mind reader. And number two, how would I know how you're feeling if you don't tell me?!?! I'm coming out of a 2yr relationship. Getting over a very emotional break-up on my behalf, and I made it crystal clear to EVERYONE that I will be dating. So for a solid 2mos now, my dating/love life has been an open book.
      I did talk to a few that I hit it off with on more than a friendship level. But, it's kind of upsetting tho, that all of a sudden I'm being made out to be this "player". First off, to the ones who claimed I never put forth any effort into taking our friendship a step further, well there was a reason, no..there were reasonssss for that. Hence, me not really making any effort into taking it a step further.. SMH. To the ones that had me before whom are so quick to judge or throw your opinions on the decisions I'm making now....DON'T! Just go away!! A relationship/dating/life advice is the last thing I need to hear from ya'll! Hahaha.. And to the ones that took my kindness as a wrong signal that lead you to expect something more than what wasn't..I'm sorry, but that's not my fault. How you take what I give you is all on you. I can't babysit your emotions. You read my social media, you see the pics on my blog, you text me on a casual level. If you've  ever wondered and really wanted to know what was really up, or how I felt about you and blah blah blah then guess fucking what!?! ALL YA HAD TA DO WAS ASK! SMH!
     So yeah...just needed to throw that out there. I'm down to chill and hang as long as you know your position with me and vice versa, and you don't do anything to disrespect my wishes. But other than that..if that is something that we can't make happen, then good riddance to ya! :) I'm trying to enjoy life and either you want to be apart of it or not. At the end of the day..life goes on and so will I.



Never mistake motion for action. -Ernest Hemingway

Song of the Day

MOLOKO - THE TIME IS NOW

(BAMBINO CASINO REMIX)

"You're the first thing and the last thing on my mind.

In your arms I feel sunshine.

Give up yourself unto the moment..the time is now.

Give up yourself unto the moment,

LET'S MAKE THIS MOMENT LAST."

QOTD:

"Let yourself be silently drawn by the stronger pull of what you really love." - Rumi

QOTD:

The happiest people are not the ones who have everything. They simply make the best of everything they have.

Nothing Even Matters

"You can be my better half and make me smile when things aren't going as planned. And we can build each other up and make each other better and have everything we've dreamed of.... just swear to me you won't look back to your past."

-RC

Song of the Day

AFROJACK feat. EVA SIMONS - TAKE OVER CONTROL

"I think it is time I let you know,

Take all of me, I will devote.

You set me free, my body's yours.

It feels the best when you're involved.

PLUG IT IN & TURN ME ON"

QOTD:

LOVE doesn't need to be perfect. It just needs to be TRUE.